Many times in my life I doubted my capabilities, if it were good enough or just a trying hard boy. I always wanted to get noticed with, maybe because all my life I always have been rejected. Nobody appreciates my hard work, my achievements yet very easy to see my mistakes. They tried to drag me down, belittle and manipulated me. I felt like I have something to show off not to disappoint them.
When you came into a perfectionist family, and take care more their image than yours, it’s terrible. It feels like you were just an ordinary employee of them, having lots of responsibility without getting affection. It is painful when your own family doesn’t recognize you, your existence and everything you do. For me, material things and life achievements are not necessary, it’s the people around you, and the love you received from them. I don’t care how high I reach; it was not accountable when no one cheers you and inspires you to keep moving.
Even relationship doesn’t help me at all. The one I love the most still left me in the air. I went through depression and anxiety that leads me to visit London. I heard a lot of good things about London, the place, the atmosphere, the people, everything. They said that London gives you a great feeling. I come to the point in life where I no longer trust everyone; I became a loner. I grew afraid to even on my own shadow. I want to give up everything, tired of people, fake love, etc. We came to the point in life that we are a no longer concern of everything like we are just waiting for our time to go into an end. We have no inspiration and motivation in life anymore.
When I met Melissa, I thought she understands my situation. I felt that she and I would last longer, but I was wrong. All the love and trust I gave to her she merely throw. She knew how afraid I am to be alone; she is the only one I am holding to in this world. But she betrayed me, she cheated on me and did not expect about it. I didn’t see it coming, and it’s excruciating for my part. You know the feeling that you feel like no use in this world.
And then I realize to go to London; there I met a London escort who made me feel whole. outcall London escorts gave me another chance to believe in myself and continue to live in my own rules. Every time I go to London; I will make sure not to missed to book a London escort because they were great ladies to accompany.